Impostor Syndrome

These days I feel like falling short in every things I do. People around me were saying good things but I felt like I did not deserve any of that. Why am I very hard on myself? I don't like it when I feel that way. I want to feel enough, I want to be proud of myself. But it is really going to take long time for me to feel that. I am writing this just to make sure I know that I am actually doing...

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Half of 2021

It's been half a year passed. Time doesn't feel like it flows but they never wait. I don't feel like I live fiercely this year. I feel like I should since it is my last year as a 20-something. Next year I am entering the 30 series. You know how I always have Peter Pan Syndrome?? It scares me that I am getting old because inside I am still the young girl but my outside shell aged, I've got wrinkles,...

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28

I miss writing. I used to write long sentences but these days my words are short. Is it because I am finally moulded into the same cookie-cutter? I feel like it was wrong to have my own thinking.  Adult. Such a simple word but quite an impact. Am I an adult? I am not sure if I can be categorized as an adult. Age wise, I was old enough. But really do I qualify to be an adult? There's so much...

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thank you

You have suffered these last few weeks. Sometimes I forgot you are already old and maybe you have less strength to fight. But I remember you are a fighter all your life, even though you were just a tiny little ball. You were very sweet hence your name Sweety. I am sorry I feel like I didn't do enough for you, but I really tried my best. I hope you are better off now you are not in pain anymore....

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2019 highlights

I traveled to Singapore for BTS concert last January. It was my first time travelling overseas for concert, so I was quite overwhelmed with the fact that I could finally do that (financially). I've grown up. Hah. I enjoyed Singapore, went there with a group of high school friends. I liked the fact that we really utilized the public transport to travel. I also enjoyed using my feet (read:walking a...

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