28

I miss writing. I used to write long sentences but these days my words are short. Is it because I am finally moulded into the same cookie-cutter? I feel like it was wrong to have my own thinking. 

Adult. Such a simple word but quite an impact. Am I an adult? I am not sure if I can be categorized as an adult. Age wise, I was old enough. But really do I qualify to be an adult? There's so much in this world that I still don't know. Sometimes I do wonder how the hell I lived all this while? Did I just strutted along without the care of the world? Is it actually a blessing not to know many things? I wonder.

I am afraid of course. I am 28 this year. But I still have no stable life as of now. I am still a contract worker and this contract is valid only until next year then it wont be renewed. Amid this covid season the economy is not that promising, pharmacist employment is usually low and now it's lower, so I don't know if I can get employed by the time they let me go. 

In the end, all my efforts during my study days was in vain. I really tried hard to be the best, I sacrificed a bit of my mental health for nothing. Now what's left is a laugh. A cynical one. 

But I do believe everything happens for a reason. For now, I keeping my faith. Let's see what life going to bring me. For better or for worse?

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thank you

You have suffered these last few weeks. Sometimes I forgot you are already old and maybe you have less strength to fight. But I remember you are a fighter all your life, even though you were just a tiny little ball. You were very sweet hence your name Sweety.

I am sorry I feel like I didn't do enough for you, but I really tried my best. I hope you are better off now you are not in pain anymore. I might forget your name after a few years, but I will never forget how you make me feel. You are the sunshine in my life. Thank you for being a part of my life. 

Adieu, Sweety. You will be missed.

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2019 highlights

I traveled to Singapore for BTS concert last January. It was my first time travelling overseas for concert, so I was quite overwhelmed with the fact that I could finally do that (financially). I've grown up. Hah. I enjoyed Singapore, went there with a group of high school friends. I liked the fact that we really utilized the public transport to travel. I also enjoyed using my feet (read:walking a lot) in another country. 

OK. Now it's about the concert. OMGGGGG BTS are awesome!! I enjoyed every second in the stadium. It is a right decision to attend this concert. I LOVE BTS

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